I made a conscious decision to not concentrate on anything other than a few key things in my life over the last month and one of those key things was to SLEEP!! I have spent tooo long not comprehending the true value of sleep and deceived myself into thinking that I was some sort of Xena Warrior Princess and that I could concentrate on all the projects I'm involved in whilst holding down a full time job…adequately spin all the plates without dropping a single one…and do all this without getting barely any sleep...DOH...I'm beginning to now realise that sleep deprivation is totally for losers!! And now that I have finally had that revelation, I feel total peace at putting everything down...
Sometimes we foolishly think we really do have to do everything that comes our way but actually there's totally a season for picking stuff up and putting stuff down...I had that revelation a few days ago as I driving down the A406 – pretty much on autopilot as I made my way to work as a teacher…that basically I didn't need to be worrying about a getting a thousand things in order to make destiny happen...on the contrary, the voice in my heart told me that I needed to put all the things that I was killing myself trying to achieve in the midst of holding down a full time job...on the backburner...and just REST my mind!!!
And then it kinda dawned on me that I had become like a silly little hamster going round and round a wheel trying to get my creative flow on with my tired and busted self whilst I had a thousand things going on and I was not GETTING ANYWHERE! As I shared my anxieties with God, sat behind the wheelpraying, I felt a gentle release as I got the revelation that sounded something along the lines of..."RELAX silly billy...BREATHE and sense the season"...And then suddenly the eyes of my heart saw the bigger picture… I was trying to do so much when in fact this season for me was about KEEPING THINGS SIMPLE! Right there and then I resolved to stop sweating the small stuff, to just relax and keep my eyes on the goal.
Following that little revelation the struggle completely left me and I dived into “REST YOUR MIND” mode. The funny thing is that since then, I have found myself looking forward to a half term week off from work and finally feeling rested enough to get my creative groove on...excited to find myself producing the next collection for the Living in Light label...excited about maybe writing some more of my manuscript...painting, dancing...reading ...woohoo...Yet I have woken up on the first day of half term and my dear heart, without even once consulting my mind has cheekily decided that it wants all the creative stuff to WAIT...because all my heart wants to do for the entire week is jam with Jesus!!
So that's exactly what we are doing…me and my heart...we are jamming with Jesus…I realised this morning that this is in fact all that I need to do!...God had given me so many divine concepts that they are almost bursting out of my seams...I feel I have so so so much to do... such little time...so much to plan...so much to execute...YET the only way I'll ever get to know how to do it...when to do it and why to do it, is by spending treasured time with HIM!!! Note to self: All things must first be birthed in INTIMACY!!
People say they have so much to do that they can't afford to spend time with God...but the truth peeps is that it's because we have so much to do that WE CAN'T AFFORD NOT TO SPEND TIME WITH HIM!!
But get this…the craziest thing is this...as you turn your heart completely towards HIM you find yourself creatively stirred up anyway, by being in His innately creative presence...unbelievably you will often times achieve far more substance from the creative flow that is conceived by default, in alone time in God's intimate presence - than weeks, even months of soulish striving could ever attain.
Wow…how mental…How simple…yet HOW DELICIOUSLY DIVINE!!